We try to balance being a mom, a wife, and a friend. Some of us throw in working a full time job or building a business in their “spare” time. FYI, “spare time” is a bullshit phrase.
With a couple of kids in dance, and recently 4H, a kid in track and field, one that lives an hour a way but still needs me, and another one we try to keep track of for family dinners.
IS HARD FOR EVERYONE OR IS IT JUST ME?
The guilt of not being good enough for everyone, the guilt of maybe letting some people down suck ass. Big time ass. Although i know it isn’t fair to put that feeling on myself, i still do it. I think we do the best we can, i know i do. Sometimes to the point of over extending ourselves to try to please everyone around us. By the time i go to bed at night, i pass out as soon as my head hits the pillow. I definitely ignore my own needs, just as 99% of moms do.
Maybe friendships aren’t supposed to last forever. Maybe people grow apart on different paths. Maybe people outgrow each other with different priorities. Maybe at 41 years old, friendships are supposed to play such a big part in our lives. My groups of friends has changed over the years. As a younger me i had my party friends. Then my friends that had babies when i had babies. Friends that were going through divorce when i was. I loved all of them but it seems that the older we get, the sooner we outgrow each other and get busy with our own lives and just lose touch.
Maybe it will all com back around in the next season of our lives…